I’m starting to think I have too frail of an ego for photography. I get all excited when someone acts interested.. Give them my portfolio and then freak out until they write back on what they think; which normally takes FOREVER! Then, I take the pictures, edit, send them off and wait another forever; the whole time convinced they hate my pictures and are calling a lawyer to sue me for taking such awful pictures .
Normally, everyone loves them but I cannot get the “they hate them!!!” out of my head until they let me know…
I’m in the wrong business.
Well, I’m in a business with too many motherfuckers who were able to afford a better camera and more supportive friends. I’m in a business where someone who “just picked up a camera” a few months ago gets more jobs than I do.
OK I’m just bitter.
Either way, I’m just about done.
Rum and cream soda is the truth.
For a minute there, I lost myself.